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I have recently started this blog experience to help me overcome something very hard to me. My husband I recently suffered a second miscarriage.
My husband and I are very personal about things but I feel a need to share the grief to help me recover. I have started my own blog in efforts to help me get through this. Here is my story...

We had been seeing a specialist since June since it was over a year of trying and not pregnant. WE found out on November 9, 2007 that I was approx 4 weeks pregnant. Excited and scared rang through me. Especially when I had taken Clomid the week prior to finding out I was pregnant. (Yes my Dr. did a hormone test before putting me on it which came back negative). On November 16, 2007 just minutes after going through the airport security my phone rang. My doctor's nurse called stating my hormones dropped alot and therefore I was having a miscarriage. We were on our way home for the weekend to celebrate Thanksgiving. My first miscarriage was in May 2006. I was 9 weeks and 4 days according to the sono. We were so excited then until I started to cramp and bleed. Our worst fears overwelmed us. I was rushed to the ER having a painful and messy miscarriage. I sat in the hospital for 3 hours just bleeding and crying the entire time. The first one I seemed to bounce back after passing the fetus and emotionally was able to return to work 1 week later. This one seems so much harder. I have a great husband, and loving family and wonderful friends, but this one I seem to be crying all day long and having a pitty me party which no one seems to understand why I cry. I normally am a very strong person emotionally but I am breaking down. The week of Thanksgiving no crying not once, now a continious waterflow. I have a range of emotions flowing throught me which normally I can control. I feel angery, sad, heartbroken and afraid.