Back to work week 1

Ok so this week I returned to work. Part time from the house. I was scared to return. I was afraid of several things.. (I still am)...

I was afraid -- that I might of made a mistake. I am afraid that I won't be able to juggle the house, dinner, baby, and job. My wonderful husband has reassured me it will be all ok. He has told me that I have set expections for the house, dinner, etc. that he isn't worried about. (How wonderful is that). I was setting the expectation that dinner will be on the table when he walks in the door, laundry will always be done, the house will always be cleaned (vacuumed from dog hair). He told me that while it was nice having dinner as soon as he walked in he is ok if its an hour later or when ever. He advised that I shouldn't try to do all the house stuff -- alone. That we are team and we will get it done together. (FYI -- husband is reallllllly domesticated he cooks, cleans, does laundry etc). So with that said it has helped me to feel better about returning to work. I was feeling guilty that since I wasn't working I should at least try to be perfect housewife.

I finally just told him that I was scared a few days ago -- wish I would of told him a while ago.

I was also afraid because I was accustomed to working out in the field doing inspections and because I have elected to take care of my daughter that I am returning to a different job. Mind you this was the same job I had 4 years ago before going out to a field position. So why am I scared?

Well let me just say it goes back to part about being able to juggle everything.

Additionally -- since I was on leave my company has been bought out by another company (I knew that prior to leaving).
I have a new boss, a different position (even though I helped created this position 4 years ago it has changed), a new set of rules, policies, and procedures to adhere to., a new dispatching system. (I previously knew the old dispatch system in and out -- I was the go to person for questions/ system). I have a new schedule which revolves solely around the baby -- I work only 20 hours -- (attempting to work 4 days 5 hours daily).

So how did my first week go??
Well it was ok.
I got caught up on the 300 + emails, the new dispatch system, and the new company way of doing things.

I must say that I manged to work a little over 5 hours Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. Which allowed me to only need to work 3 hours Thursday, and off on Friday.


On a different front -- I must give my little darling so major Kudos... She is making me proud. I wish I could say she was tooting when getting baptized, or clanging on the crib but that isn't the case. She has actively b/f -- the past 2 weeks. I am so glad. Apparently -- her b/f issue was she was over stimulated. I have been always trying to get her back to the boobs.. She wouldn't do it. Well finally I just started having the breast ready for her, (previous post -- she would scream when I lifted my shirt). We then swaddle her, and rock her (in her room). She has gone from only feeding at the breast 3-4 times per day (bottle feed the rest) to only taking 1-2 bottles per day.
As long as we are at home she will b/f.. If we are out she will not -- (again going back to over stimulated).

Ok long enough post --

Have a great weekend.