Random thoughts

Well finally the 2 (yes 2) teeth broke through the skin. Little one is much happier still a little cranky. We went back to Chicago last weekend. She was ok on the ride. We get to my MIL house - and grandma goes to hold her; guess what? SHe just screams and screams. Nice. Now I have another issue to deal with. She apparently only wants to be held by me. She would still scream if hubby was holding her. I guess because she is with me all day. This motherhood thing is hard!!

Let me just preface this next comment that, I am not complaining about being a mother or having this wonderful baby.

She is not sleeping that well -- she will wake up fussy and will not take the breast like she would previously. She was doing great on b/f previously got her back to the breast. That lasted a week. Now we are back to the ususal 4 feedings during the am.
She will not sleep through the night. The past 2 nights she has been moving around - slamming her feet down but not really awake. Do I try and wake her to feed or just let her sleep? She makes noise when she is doing this. Like she is having a bad dream? I don't know. I just want her to start sleeping normally again. I am lost at this point.

I go back to work in less than 2 weeks. Talke about SCARED. Yes I know its only part time and working from the house. So why am I scared? Well they have totally changed our computer system, we have merged with another company, I have a new boss, and a different position. Yes I have don't that position before but it has changed since I did it 4 years ago. I am scared that my plan -- to work 4 days a week 5 hours per day will fail. I did advise my boss that I will give them the 20 hours but please don't expect them to be all w/in 4 days. He seemed ok with that. He basically told me to make sure I get what I needed done -- which would be 20 claims processed a week. That is dueable, seeing how I previously did 12 -14 a day..

I am scared that the house duties will now be second to everything else. I am afraid that I won't have dinner ready when hubby comes home. Not that he requires it but it has been nice for both of us. I am scared that laundry won't get done until the weekends. Wow this is really on my mind.
I give kudos to these other moms who work full time outside of the house and still manage to have a perfectly clean house and dinner ready all the time.

My wonderful husband has reassured me that I don't have to work. Well I am really feeling guilty about spending money -- since I don't work. So I guess its a thing I will have to deal with.

Well baby is crying time for afternoon nap. WHich she does when she is tired she cries and then falls asleep.